Today I was able to do something that I’ve never even attempted before.
I was set up for another farmer’s market with all of my artwork and my materials for custom runes and energy readings. A woman stopped by my tent for a reading. It was neither a good nor a bad reading, but suggested change was necessary because she was unhappy with the stagnation of her current situation. At the end, she mentioned that she really wanted to know what her brother was trying to tell her before he passed.
I did let her know that this is not something I’ve ever done before so I had no experience and it’s not really something I focus on. In the end, we decided to give it a try. We both called out to him and I had her hold her questions for him in her mind while I tried to reach him. Instead of tumbling the trinkets I use for the readings around in the jar I normally use, I gently moved them from hand to hand while I tried to focus on external energies. When I felt something, I dropped the pieces onto the board.
The purple stone that I use to symbolize the spiritual self fell directly in the center of the Yes circle, something that I’ve never seen before. Nothing else surrounded it.
He was there with us.
It’s something very hard to describe. I was so nervous to try, mainly from a fear of letting her down, and letting myself down as well if it turned out to be something I just wasn’t capable of. Once I threw the pieces down and I felt him arrive it was like a flood of relief. His energy hovered behind me and I could tell that he wanted to be there for his sister and he was so thankful to finally be able to communicate with her.
He didn’t want to talk about whatever it was that he didn’t get to say before he passed, and it felt like he had changed his mind in some way about wanting to say it. He focused more on giving her advice on her current hardships. He really wanted to support her and let her know that he could see that she wasn’t happy and that she needed to take the break she’s been thinking about taking. He also really wanted her to know that her younger sister would be a huge loving support for her. He wanted to reassure her that he understands what she’s going through and that he was not mad at her in any way.
I’ve had a dream before, and as crazy as it may sound, I believe I died momentarily and was given a glimpse at the in between place. I’ll definitely write more in detail about it in the future but the gist of this middle ground was: it’s a void. There is no light and yet you can see perfectly, although there is nothing to see. In my dream there was a menu, written in a language I’ve never seen before but I understood what it said through an extra sense. I was formless. I had no body, no stress, no tension, no tether. I was free in the purest sense. It was an unfathomable feeling-less-ness that cannot accurately be put to words or experienced while alive. I knew I would never feel that way again until I do die one day. I cannot say what the next space looks like since I chose to come back.
All this to say that there is an otherworldly sense of understanding in that middle ground and, I suspect, in the space after that. Spirits are not often mad when an understanding can be reached.
The experience was like a balloon popping, but it sang a song of relief as it deflated. It was a very tender, overwhelming moment being able to let him communicate with his sister and giving her some sense of closure even though he didn’t want to talk about the past.
This felt like the perfect “dip the toes in the water” experience with communicating with a spirit. It was an easy connection because they both wanted to talk to each other. I think going forward I may start offering a special reading for people to attempt to communicate with the spirit of someone they know. This would be different from the regular readings and I would only charge if the person they try to reach answers the call. This experience gives me a lot of hope for learning new ways to help people and branching out to add more to the psychic side of my business.
Hopefully there is more to come 🙂
